Friday, January 25, 2008

mixed nuts = a handfull of goods and bads

It's midnight. The time when everything settles and my mind begins to unravel itself into deep contemplation. So where do I begin?

First things first: I feel sick. not cold sick, but I'm-about-to-throw-up-sick.. I decided to take a break from my long night of studying [okay, so maybe long night means a few hours.. gimme a break!] and watch Cloverfield with some of the guys. Without spoiling anything, here's what i gotta say..
- I get motion sickness pretty easy when it comes to movies like this.. So the movie was a big no no for me me.
- I get MOTION SICKNESS! fuck! okay, I think I'm over that part for now. *cue queezy feeling in stomach*
- good story line. keeps you on the edge thinking "wtf?! wtf?! wait a second.. wtf?! oh shit! omg watch out! wtf?!".. just as long as you can get over the "what?! another POV movie?! aw shit.. sorry guys, I gotta move to the back seats.." [which is what actually happened for me]
- lots of clues in the movie.. you know where to look for them? its called the INTERNET.

overall, disregarding the queezy feeling.. I'd have to give it a 7 outa 10..

Now STAR TREK [dir. J.J. Abrams]... that's the shit I'm waiting for! don't get me wrong, I'm no Trekky [sp?] fan, but like Cloverfield, the trailer has got me hooked already! btw, did anyone notice during the 10,000 B.C. trailer, they were talking english?! really? I didn't know modern english dates back to 10,000 B. friggin C. !!! oh well, I'm still gonna watch it cause I love sabertooth tigers! meow!

NEXT TOPIC [drum roll please..]
lets all spell together now... D-R-A-M-A .. yaye! our favorite topic! grab a blanket and popcorn! the good stuff is about to start! I'm kidding [get used to a lot of those from me].. it's not really drama, it's just... ... . .. confusion? yeah, that'll work for now. As most of you know, I just got out of a relationship. A pretty good one, might I add. Actually, one that was not only worth giving my life up for, but a great learning experience. When it ended, I was the typical mad-as-fuck-ex-boyfriend. Doing the usual talking to "mah boys" and agreeing with the typical things your buds would say to you.. but now, I'm alright with everything.. I've learned SO MUCH from it, that I'm not upset anymore. I've grown into a better person, I like to believe, and just don't regret anything.

but just recently I noticed the worst part. I lost a friend, a best friend actually.. I shared so much with her, and I still wish I could now! I mean, I would share things with her in a heart beat, but she's just not the same anymore. She's been acting like a totally different person. I don't know if it's me, but when we talk, or I ask her simple things, she takes offense to it. I'm REALLY not trying to be a dick.. There's no reason for me to do that! I'm not trying to get back with her, so throw me a friggin' bone here! Anyways, without going into too much detail, I'll just say that if that's the new person she's going to be, then that sucks. It's a waste of a good heart, cause I know the real her is in there somewhere, and hopefully she understands that I'm not here to make her look bad, I'm just trying to let you see that your a better person.

hmm.. not really drama, huh? I guess not. it would be more "dramatic" if I went into detail, but for one thing I respect her as a person and won't go breaking down that barrier.. and also, I'm not that kind of a person.

This is all about me! me, baby.. ME. okay so enough with that. um, shit! this new "afterlife," "beginning," "rebirth," whatever the heck you wanna call it, it has started out nice. For those of you who have been with me recently, you know what I'm talking about.. "we've only just beguuuuunnn.".. I've been doing things that I don't usually do, which is faaaaan-fuckin-tastic! Cause I needed to get outta my usual schedule, so for those who have helped: THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU! you know you've enjoyed my company.. and I'm just gettin' started! bring on the alcohol! juuuuusst kidding.. [not really.. but really.. no im kidding.. i think ;) ]

well, I've got so much more on my mind right now, but I have to make like titties and bounce [yeah thats right! I said it! bring on the feminist!]... btw, i started that one :) but probably not something I should be proud about.. okay, I have to make like hockey players and get the PUCK outta here!.. It's late, I'm queezy, and I still have to study! so to all a good night! and for those of you "gettin' some" ... I HATE YOU :)



Anonymous said...

Thank you. :)